"I will be in DC by February 2018."
In my spirit, I felt my next chapter would be in DC. So, this is the statement I kept repeating to myself over the past two years. "I will be in DC by February 2018."
The more I started sharing my plan with other people, the more they would start asking me for details.
- What's in DC?
- Do you have a job lined up?
- Where would you live?
...All good questions. Yet, my answers were always I don't know, no, and more I don't know.
I felt so confident my next chapter would be in DC that I was fine not having all the answers... Fine until it was somehow October 2017 and I still had zero answers to give. I'd spent two years telling people I would be moving in February and still had no game plan. How would I move in less than 4 months with no job or housing or plan? HOW?!
With about 3 months left to figure out my life, I did the logical thing.. I started my search! I was on every job site scrolling through countless jobs that sounded like pure torture - wondering how much of my sanity I was willing to compromise to make this move and make a living.
...Then on to housing. Could I afford rent by myself? ...especially with no job? I didn't even have a roommate option so... there's that. I had zero peace and zero plan. It was hard to sleep, harder to focus, and hardest to ignore the overwhelming levels of stress.
In that moment, a specific scripture came to my heart.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. - Philippians 4:6-7
I truly believed God had something for me in DC... but I was trying to make it happen for myself by myself. If this move was meant to happen, I knew I had to trust God with that same type of energy. With only a couple of months (literally) left, I let everything go and made a very honest plea...
"Lord, I believe this is where you've set my next chapter. I believe you have something there for me. If DC is where you have me to be, then I need you to work this out because I cannot do this on my own. The stress, the anxiety, I cannot, I cannot."
Sounds crazy, right?
Well, in just two months I had a bomb roommate, a lovely apartment, and a job I couldn't have even dreamed up. Moral Of The Story: you can use your energy to make things what they could be or you can use your faith to make things what they should be. It's your call.
p.s. Oh btw... Say hello to the new Associate Director of Nutrition at the American Diabetes Association!